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I don’t like being a stay-at-home mom.

I don’t particularly have an affinity for children between the ages of 3 and about 15.

I usually get bored after a couple of years of doing the same thing. I’ve been staying home now for almost 4.

My husband doesn’t get it. He figures nobody really likes their job. Staying home is mine. Get over it.

But I don’t get to leave my job and come home to my family. I don’t enjoy my evenings because I’m already burnt out from my days.

My house can’t stay clean, but if I stop trying it grows like a monster until I feel overwhelmed and beat down.

My mom says I’m constantly frustrated. That she can’t imagine this scenario is a good one for me or my kids. I think she’s right.

But I don’t have any solutions. This blog doesn’t make enough money to support fulltime childcare or even part-time childcare.

This really isn’t about me. It’s about my boys. They don’t deserve a frustrated mom. They don’t deserve to be grouched at or vented on. It doesn’t work anyway.

Yesterday, Riley said, “Mom, you don’t have to be so grumpy.” And he’s right.

I could go back to work part-time and do the blog, but I would need just the right job. With just the right boss. Oh, time for preschool drop off . . . more on this later.

P.S. Don’t you dare tell me if I had a godly attitude, this would be different. That’s not what this is about . . . and I don’t believe that God intends for every mother to stay home or that every mother who doesn’t is not in His will. So let’s not start that conversation, okay?

Comments

  1. I definitely think you are out of God's will if you go back to work full time. 'Cause then, how would you have a Crazy Summer with us in a few months?!

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  2. I understand your frustration and can sympathize.

    When I got pregnant with my first child I worked, same for the second. Then came the third and 'everyone' told me I should stay home with my kids. It was not the right decision for my or my family.

    I am a better mom when I work outside of the home. I have more energy and patience. I have a better sense of who I am and that is important.

    It is a difficult balance and you are right that it takes the right job and boss to make it work. I wish you the very best.

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  3. maybe you can find a job in a childcare facility where you can bring your kids or get them free/cheaper tuition? just a thought :) sorry you are so frustrated.

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  4. Raising kids is hard! I think most stay at home moms can relate to your feelings of frustration. I know I certainly can. Hang in there.

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  5. Maybe you just need a real break from it all so that you can get revved up about it again? You've been doing it for 4 yrs so you are bound to be burned out!

    Can you take a "me-only vacation"? A day or 2 or 3 to yourself while hubby watches all of the kids? Go all wild and stay in a hotel by yourself, etc - get pampered or just visit all the museums or places you haven't gotten to go too with kids. Everyone needs a break - even SAHMs!

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  6. I'm right there with ya. It's hard work being a Stay at Home Mom and very frustrating. I know once my oldest started school this year it got easier. I can't wait for my youngest to start next school year. I want to find a part time job but, I don't have the help with childcare and no extra money for daycare. I keep telling my husband that I need a vacation. He doesn't understand. A lot of people don't understand unless they have been in our shoes. It's not easy just because we're at home all day with the kids.

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